peace of mind will find you hidding, she always does, she will sneak up on you, when your feeling down, when you just want to be alone. she'll distort your thoughts, make you see good whien all around is macabre. she is a beakon, a guiding light that shows you the shore. Who is she you ask?, the only answer is your deepest desire to be wanted, your ever emotion of hate, love, apathy, and sympathy, she is love.
life and something like it by Raines-Sanctum, literature
Literature
life and something like it
with each passing day, I find myself a victem,
trapped by my own will to be different.
I try so hard to protect all that make me me,
and conserve what gives me my individuality,
but all it seems is I promote the whole of society, and I tend to do what the status quo allows,
thus promoting utility.
I've said no more, I'm through I've giving up,
but I always tend to wade these cold waters,
and survive.
Never needing an answer,
Cool, calm, and collective,
This is what you see,
This is what I am not.
To tell you the truth,
I'm nothing you see,
I put on this mask,
my cover-up for you.
Always needing direction,
Nerveous, scared, and unsure,
Everything I am inside,
Everyday I want to die.
To tell you the truth,
I'm nothing you see,
I put on this mask,
My cover-up for you.
I find myself at peace now,
Asured, certain, and compassionate,
These are what you are,
these are what I see.
To tell you the truth,
I'm everthing you see,
I put away this mask,
my cover-up is you.
chained to this never ending thing named depression,
i drag it along every where i go,
everything i see i feel in misery,
tormented and inflicted with sorrow,
so many tears have been shed,
for to long my heart has bled,
no happiness as my friend,
no light in my life,
a dark cloud that hovers over me,
a gloomy rain storm that showers me with my hurtful feelings,
i've gone for so long,
i've struggled with the coldness in me,
struggled for so long to keep my strength,
the pain just is set to deep and i can't fight it off,
no longer can it be held back,
i cry from the misery that is set upon me,
i am all alone,
i have lost a batt
On a night this quiet
One can hear everything
In a lonely room
A heart under fire
Bursts into flame
Blood burning
Till it blazes in his eyes
And roars in his ears
A tempest only he sees and hears
In the apartment next door
Two lovers fall out of love
At exactly the same moment
And watch together, amazed
As that small space between them
Suddenly grows vast
And the ground rushing up at them
Is colder and harder
Than any ground they've ever walked before
Meanwhile, not a stone's throw away
An old couple is lounging on the sofa
Looking out at the patio garden
Enchanted by its simple beauty
When suddenly, the old woman ima
Current Residence: Kimberly Idaho Favourite genre of music: Everthing Operating System: Windows ME MP3 player of choice: IPod Shell of choice: Turtle Favourite cartoon character: Samari Jack Personal Quote: "Love shouldn't be painful, it just ends up that way."
Favourite Movies
Momento, American History X, Army of Darkness, Full Metal Jacket, A Clockwork Orange, Haggard
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good to see you still log in every now and again. you should check out my new work. My truck is running GREAT. how come the jeep project. if Jason still out of the loop? well peace
BTW my peircings are doing good and I am thinking about stretching my ears to 10. then I can put in these custum glass earrings that my freind chris made.
hey!! i just found out how to work that crazy nearby deviant thing. looks like you only live about 10 Km away from me! isn't that sweet? what school do you go to?. i'm currently at CSI.